maximum occupancy

so i've been blog hopping a bit lately - and i have to say - it will never cease to amaze me how many great people there are out there - witty, articulate, strong...and how many times i've stopped and thought to myself - 'man, this person is a complete stranger on the other side of the country - and i know EXACTLY how they feel.'...it's just great.

question: why is it that the older we get, the less friends we make? are we just set with the friends that we already have and don't feel the need to go out and add to that circle? do we have a maximum occupancy of how many we can have in our lives? it's just strange - i cant remember the last time that i made a new friend - maybe college was the last time...there are the permanent fixtures that you know aren't going anywhere - the ones that have left you better off. on the flip side, i've had my share of turbulent friendships - some of which have faded away - others which remain pungent to eat away at me. perhaps it would take the extinction of these to make room for others that will inevitably be more fruitful. but then i think to myself - 'ahh, i don't want to start all over again - my friends know me, we have history, they know the quirks and idiosyncrasies, i don't want to have to 'court' new ones...' but how far can history take you? sure we shared some laughs, but, hey - i can laugh with other people. so there will be a slight downturn in 'remember that time when...' stories, but hey, i can get over that.
thoughts? share.


"There isn't much I haven't shared
With you along the road
And through it all there'd always be
Tomorrow's episode
Suddenly that isn't true
There's another avenue
Beckoning the great divide
Ask no questions, take no side
Who's to say who's right or wrong
Whose course is braver run
Still we are, have always been
Will ever be as one..."

100 things

100 things about me

1. i hate eggs, tomatoes, mushrooms and black olives
2. i love asparagus, green olives, kiwi, kettle corn and mangos
3. i would like to go to greece in the very near future
4. i cannot sit in silence - i have to be talking, have music or the tv on
5. i am the oldest child and my parents like my sister better than me
6. i am very bossy sometimes
7. when i am very angry i become very terse and cold
8. i get chills that shake my body
9. i have freckles
10. one of the best gifts i have ever gotten was a mixed cd of my favorite songs
11. i prefer dark chocolate to milk
12. i hate white chocolate
13. i have a staring problem
14. i have had 2 emotional breakdowns in my life.
15. both happened within the last 6 months.
16. i like sad movies that make me cry
17. i hate jim carrey and freddie prinz jr (see item 64)
18. i bite my nails
19. i am nocturnal
20. i like to make lists
21. it takes a lot to make me really angry
22. i have been told that i have a scary temper
23. i like to sing
24. i think my mom is really smart
25. i hate having curly hair
26. i love having my hair straight and long
27. i dont drink enough water
28. i love pear scented candles
29. i love furniture shopping
30. i am a know-it-all and a backseat driver
31. i love terms of endearment
32. i love going to weddings - they make me happy
33. in college i wanted to start an acapella group
34. no one would join my group
35. i used to live in georgia
36. we used to have a dog named fluffy
37. i am a klutz
38. ive broken my nose, arms, fingers, legs
39. i have battle scars (aka scars from falling down for no reason)
40. i used to crush a lot
41. i dont anymore
42. i think i might have given up on the best thing that ever happened to me
43. i make a lot of mistakes
44. i dance in my car
45. i am not a good driver
46. i dont know how to play poker
47. i have never seen Casablanca, Top Gun or Pulp Fiction
48. i forgive, but i dont forget...ever
49. i can stay mad at girls way longer than i can at boys
50. i love going to concerts
51. ive never been taken on a picnic
52. i love calla lilies, orchids and peach roses
54. i had a band when i was in 3rd grade
55. i was the lead singer, of course
56. my favorite cartoon is Jem
57. i like to argue
58. i exaggerate to make a story better
59. i hate being lied to
60. i love playing board games
61. i am REALLY competitive
62. i have a lot of regrets
63. i was an extra in a freddie prinz jr movie
64. he cursed at me and is now my nemesis
65. i like to paint
66. most of my work is crap
67. i dont have any tattoos, but have 6 piercings
68. i became a different person in college
69. i iron my towels
70. i get road rage
71. i cant be in the car without the radio on
72. i feel guilty when i make my sister upset
73. i have a very acute sense of smell
74. sarah mclauchlan can make me cry
75. i think that i have been hurt more than most
76. i feel that very few people really know me well
77. i am very loyal
78. i love the rain
79. i like being cold
80. i never get enough sleep
81. i think i am the sappiest person i know
82. i daydream 60% of the day
83. i love it when someone gives you their coat
84. only two other people have ever driven my car
85. i wish i had a thicker skin
86. i am a jealous person
87. i was in a singing contest at a fair, and lost
88. i think i seem like an open book, but i am actually very private
89. i think the worst feeling is disappointment
90. i trust very few people
91. i have been swept off my feet
92. i am not easily impressed
93. i wish i was more spontaneous
94. i am looking forward to motherhood
95. i think britney spears is gross.
96. i didnt know how to light a match until college
97. i have fainted once in my life - when i was 16 and volunteering in the maternity ward of a hospital
98. i wish i was more religious than i am
99. i get frustrated with people that dont think like me
100. writing this list gave me carpal tunnel

jumped.

first and foremost - happy belated new years all! two-thousand-friggin-five. dayam.

new years is my favorite time of year...it usually is a really great time - i cant recall ever not having a GREAT new years eve celebration - and this year was no exception...had SOOO much fun. there was debauchery in excess, the exchange of beads, tears, laughter, flowing libations, stalkers - all the ingredients for mayhem.

one of my life long quests was finally achieved. no not that. i was in a cat fight - well actually - i was jumped.
rewind to 11:30pm december 31st - we had been drinking, and you know how the story goes - i HAD to use the restroom - i simply could not wait any longer. padh and bomb warn me that the line is 2 miles long and that there is no way that i would make it back to the club for the countdown. i decide to take my chances. i run to the restroom - and see that there is literally 2 miles long full of drunken girls. i decide to take matters into my own hands and cut the entire line. yes, yes, i know this is wrong, and i wouldnt normally do such a thing - but i was drunk, wasnt thinking straight, and HAD to go. so there i am standing there in front, minding my own business, when i hear someone from behind yell - 'where did YOU come from?!' - i ignore the comment. i hear again 'where'd the bitch in the weave come from?!' (note - i dont have a weave!)...i felt someone's hand on my shoulder - i turn and see that there are 4 scary girls with black lip liner, crunchy hair, and acrylic nails (you know the type) staring at me...at this point i am slightly frightened (by slightly, i mean - if i wasnt doing those kegals - i probably would have gone right then and there)...i stand firm and say 'i was here' - black-lip liner girls says 'see that girl in the green in front of you? ive been behind her for an hour and a half, biatch'...i repeat, 'ummm, i was here'. here begins the fight - someone pulled my hair - HARD. my neck does this weird whip lash thing, someone had stomped on my foot. i begin flailing about. i think i managed to get a slap somewhere in there, and continue to flail about. i see that a stall has opened up - i stomp on someone's foot, release myself and run into the stall. i hear them outside still calling me profanities. i attempt to call for backup - alas, no reception (damn you sprint!). i go. and wait - for fear that they are waiting outside - i open the door slightly and take a peek - coast is clear. i haul ass back to the club - i have never run in heels before - and i was fast.

i return to the club and tell padh and bomb that i was just jumped - we are distracted by the countdown (i think? - this point is a blur) and all is forgotten...until the next day - when i take a shower and discover the severe neck pains and missing chunks of hair. lovely. i discover an acrylic nail (not mine) in my jacket pocket - perhaps i was saving it as a souvenir? yuck. what happens in vegas, stays in vegas - apparently except for hair loss, bruising, whip lash, and other people's nails in your pocket.

ahh, what a great night.

and a very special dedication...

"so who's to worry
if our hearts get torn
when that hurt gets thrown
don't you know this life goes on
and won't you kiss me
on that midnight street
sweep me off my feet
singing ain't this life so sweet

this year's love had better last..."