he said no

a girl asked a boy if she was pretty...
he said no.
she asked him if he wanted to be with her forever...
he said no.
she asked him if he would cry if she walked away...
he said no.
she went to leave
as she walked away, he grabbed her arm and asked her to stay.
he said you're not pretty, you're beautiful.
i don't want to be with you forever, i NEED to be with you forever,
and i wouldnt cry if you walked away...i would die.

romantic or the cheesiest thing you've ever heard?

"give a little bit
give a little bit of your love to me
give a little bit
i’ll give a little bit of my love to you
there’s so much that we need to share
so send a smile and show you care..."

Soundtrack of my life...

Favorite Karaoke Song To Sing: "Stay" Lisa Loeb
Song I Most Often Sing In The Shower: "On My Own" Les Miserables
Song My Mom Told Me To Stop Singing Because I Was A Suburban 13 Year-Old Indian Girl: "Gangsta's Paradise" Coolio
First Song I Knew All The Words To As a Kid: "I Think We're Alone Now" Tiffany & EVERY Debbie Gibson song
Song That I Would Quote for No Reason in HS: "Killing Me Softly" Fugees
Song I Would Have My Husband Sing to Me at Our Wedding: "She's Got a Way" Billy Joel
Song I Think I Sound Really Good Singing: "What a Girl Wants" Christina Aguilera
Song Lyrics I Yell Out When Extremely Drunk: "Kuch Kuch Hota Hai"
Song I Love Singing More Than Anything Else: "Part of Your World" Little Mermaid
Song I Constantly Sang To College BF: "Somebody" Depeche Mode
Song I Would Sing on BF's voicemail: "Groovy Kind of Love" Phil Collins
Song I Would Sing And Dance To In College While Getting Ready To Go Out: "Only You" 112, "Freaks of the Industry" Kottonmouth Kings
Song That Can Make Me Cry: "Angel" Sarah Mclaughlin
Song That I Can Rap the Entire Way Through: "Mo' Money, Mo' Problems" B.I.G.
Album I Sing Along To, Every Word To Every Single Song: Sarah Mclaughlin Adia
Song I Sang In Front of My Mom That Led To An Awkward Sexual Discussion As A Kid: "Let's Talk About Sex" Salt & Peppa

pay me, wb

im really bad with boys. they are most definitely from mars, or make it pluto - because its farther. i dont know what they are thinking or why they do what they do or say what they say. even worse are those boys that know me, and know how to push my buttons and make me upset for their own pleasure. my constant neurosis doesnt help much, but adds fuel to the fire. i always put myself in these asinine situations, where i am basically just asking for it. it, being trouble (just wanted to clarify).

on another note...i am felicity of the not-so-widely acclaimed wb series 'felicity'. our lives seem to parallel one another. here are some reasons why:
1) both of our names have a 'y' in it
2) we were both raised in ca
3) both of our parents wanted us to be doctors
4) both of us would prefer to paint
5) both of our first relationships were with dorky guys that like computers
6) both of us have (had) the crazy curly hair
7) both of us loved the mickey mouse club (she was on it, i watched it)
8) both of us had 'incidents' in college where our parents were going to make us transfer to a school closer to home
9) there are other similarities that i cannot get into due to self-incrimination

damn, its like a chronicle of my life. i think i deserve some sort of monetary compensation for them using my life for show material.

p.s. for your viewing pleasure:

http://i.euniverse.com/funpages/cms_content/5367/mjs_fave_things01.swf

"Last night I dreamt
That somebody loved me
No hope, no harm
Just another false alarm
Last night I felt
Real arms around me
No hope, no harm
Just another false alarm
So, tell me how long
Before the last one?
And tell me how long
Before the right one?"

<3

if you believe in love at first sight, you never stop looking...

i cant take my eyes off of you.

addicted...

ad·dic·tion (a-dkshn): n.
Compulsive physiological and psychological need for a habit-forming substance.
The condition of being habitually or compulsively occupied with or or involved in something.

i have a problem. im obsessed. im addicted. i thought to myself, ill try it just once and then walk away - just to see what it was all about. but it's not that easy, it never is. everyone else was doing it. they were having so much fun, and would always talk about the good stuff they had gotten. i tried to abstain for the longest time, and for a really long time i was successful - not getting caught up in that lifestyle. but recently my temptation got the better of me, and now i just cant stop. it's such a rush, such a high. ive become different - jumpy and edgy...the first step is asking for help. i think i need help.


yes, it's true. it's all true. im addicted to e-bay.

i bid on bizarre items that i don't need - just for the thrill of pushing the button, get into bidding wars with perfect strangers, ive become a hermit. endless hours have been consumed by the monster that is e-bay. free me from this self-induced misery!

"Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?"

happiness is...

happiness is...

*hearing that one certain song on the radio just as you are about to get out of the car - and sit there and listen to it until the end
*someone mentioning something that you told them years ago - and you think to yourself wow, i cant believe they remember that
*getting a letter in the mail, a REAL handwritten letter - not email!
*overhearing someone say something nice about you
*being in that hug that you just dont want to end
*laughing so hard that you cry and getting that pain in your stomach that hurts so good
*putting on those warm, fuzzy socks on a cold night
*water shows at the grove while the lighted trees twinkle in the background
*getting butterflies in your stomach

apologies to those that have had to suffer through the sudden influx of my sappy/sentimental mood as of late - some of you know the reasoning behind that. yes, i cried when i heard that ken jennings lost on jeopardy. yes, i cried when i saw the trailer for closer with that one song that goes 'and so it is...i cant take my eyes of you'. yes, i cried when i got so frustrated that the paint wouldnt mix to be the color that i wanted it to be and it turned into a poo brown. but i think that i'm all cried out now, ive snapped out of it. thank you for your patience =).

p.s. happy bday special k! can you believe it was over 7 years ago that we met on the steps of tau house?

"And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky"

violated...

i was violated yesterday. there i was, innocently going about my business, working hard as usual...and i get this email from chi chi that is completely inappropriate. he had constructed an animated version of himself to see what he would look like if he was mexican and scantily clad. it was completely unsolicited. its not like i sent him a link to the website (http://www.myvirtualmodel.com) and told him to send me his creation or anything sordid like that. oh my innocence has been ripped from me, having been forced to look at animated naked mexican versions of chi chi and all.

chi chi chavez
*because i still feel a bit shaken from this assault, there will be no lyrical allusion today...please take a moment of silence