im bringing cinci back.

long time, no blog. i cant quite pin down what the draw of pouring your heart out to a faceless audience is...but it's a release.

the past: a quick recap? my summer in the nati was amazing, to say the least. i have never enjoyed a work experience as much as i did. learned a tremendous amount, met some tremendously wonderful people and had the opportunity to experience people and places that i would have never otherwise (namely kentucky, and wearers of the anomaly that is the croc sandal).

the present: back in el cuidad de angels. back in school. the sis is now co-habitating my space. busier than i ever thought i would be, why am i not surprised? but i returned with something new - a true sense of priority. i feel like i have a semblance of understanding of what is important to me, and what routes i should take to attain those things - in several respects...

i had dinner with my lovely lalas the other night (long overdue)...and just sitting there, and thinking about what amazing people they each were, and all that they have achieved in their few years. each on the verge of something great...left me nothing short of truly impressed.

i had an interesting conversation last night...left me with quite a bit to reflect on. i dont know why i think the way i think, and why i am difficult for the sake of being difficult. will i forever be this stubborn? i feel that i am very open, but at the same time i am one of the most guarded people i know...which i try to mask with humor and silliness...but when it comes down to it, that wall will always be there. spoke to bombi about this today, her priceless response, "not that you should change your personality or anything, but maybe you should change your personality"

hmmmm, ill try.

"Vanilla smile
And a gorgeous strawberry kiss!
Birds sing we swing
Clouds drift by and everything is like a dream
It's everything I wished"

forget the world...

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?